Bittersweet

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lyrics

First to Fall

Black and white
Shades of gray into the night
Put pen to paper and I write
Sleep it off, I’ll be all right

Crawling out
Of my skin into the doubt
Silently I scream and shout
Off to war, this soldier’s down

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You have my back against the wall
Tell me how to end it all
And I’ll be the first to fall, the first to fall

It’s my crime
The prisoner of war I hide
I have learned to go inside
I have learned to bide my time

Chorus

All the noise and all the noise and all the noise I hear
It never really makes it clear
What keeps me hanging on again
And oh the fear and all the fear and all the fear and all the fear I know
Well it never really lets me go
From this choke hold

Chorus 2x

In Andy’s Room

So you come, so I go out like the tide
So you speak and I walk out of your life
How can you love me, you know nothing of me, I’ll say
How can you love me when you know that I’ll never stay

The same, it’s the same pattern of nothing to name
And I still remain in love when I’m bored

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I can’t find my way
I can’t find my way
I can’t find my way back to you
I can’t find my way
I can’t find my way
I can’t find my way back to you
So I go hang out in Andy’s room

So I come, so you go in like that tide
So I break and you walk out of my life
How can you love me, you know nothing of me I’ll say
How can you love me when I pull and push you away

So you pray, so you pray to Jesus in his holy name
And I fall from grace and into your mouth

Chorus

Oh well you know oh you know that I try, oh I try, oh I try
To come in the light, oh the light of your face

Chorus – 1 and a half times

You Can Never Say

Tidal waves are crashing down upon me and I know it’s time to go
I feel the weight of the world now on my shoulders and I know it’s time to go

Look at my face, and all the lines you never seemed to trace
My, my mistake, was to try and open up your mouth
and somehow make the words come out but

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You can never say the things you feel
No you can never say the things you feel
So how am I supposed to know what’s real
When you can never say the things you feel
Oh you can never say what I need to hear
No you can never say what I need to hear
That’s why I have to let you go my dear
Cause you can never say what I need to hear now

You turn the page, meticulously write down what you’ll say, oh it’s your way
You go and play, you let the legions in on all your pain, oh it’s your way

Oh simple words, that are simply longing to be heard
But what, what can I do? Tell me why is it so hard for you
to break the skin and let me through

Chorus

So, so here I lay, and I’m hoping maybe someday you might change
But you, you stay the same. You have nothing left to say
so that’s my cue to walk away

Chorus 2x

Whole

So I sit here and I think about the world
I think I think too much in general
I was raised a Christian girl, a Christian girl
But you say I dance with the devil
I don’t know if there’s a god or if we’re accidents
Or if we came from something
And it bothers you to know that I’m okay
I’m okay knowing next to nothing

Chorus
Oh whole
I’m just trying to be whole, to be whole
Oh whole
I’m just trying to be whole, to be whole

When you ask me where we come from
All I know is that I came out of my mother
And it’s beautiful to know that I can give
Yes I can give life to another
When you ask me where we go when we pass on
Well I know not of hell or heaven
When you’re six feet underground
Six feet under you know I’ll come by and I’ll visit

Chorus

And it seems to me the downfall of the world
Inside the garden came from woman
Did she not have redeeming qualities
That possibly could let her be forgiven?
Why did Jesus have to die for all my sins
What are the sins that I’ve committed?
Oh yeah you preach to me, you preach to me
When you’re the one who needs acts of contrition

Chorus
Yeah it’s easy to throw stones
When you live upon an altar of your own
And oh it’s easy to throw stones
When you live upon an altar of your own, of your own, of your…

Over You

Years go by and I’m the same
And I have no one else to blame
‘Cause even the rain leaves faster than it came
It’s only pain, it’s only pain you’ll say

On the days that my temper flares
You and I, well we don’t go there
‘Cause all my life, I have always been the one under the knife
Oh but you, well you, oh you never look twice

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When will the sun come out to play
‘Cause I, I need a friendly face
Oh ‘cause I’m feeling low, oh so blue
And it’s over you
Oh you, over you, oh you do do do…

And oh these thoughts, well they tend to dwell
Until I bid them the last farewell
‘Cause I, I know that I drag myself into the undertow
Oh well that’s, that’s just the way that it goes

Chorus

Hey this jealousy is coming over me
Oh it’s the agony of defeat
It’s bittersweet

You’re, you’re the one, you’re the golden boy
And all that you touch, well it turns to joy
‘Cause you, you sing as though you’re some metaphorical king
Oh that’s cool if that’s your thing

Chorus

Over you, over you, oh you, do do do…

What You Want

Where do I go from here
How do I find my way back home
Where do I go from here
How do I unlearn all I’ve known

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All the times I failed
And all the times I’ve lost
All the times I couldn’t be what you want
What you want

Oh where do I go from here
Tell me how to get back up again
Where do I go from here
How do I find solace in the end

Chorus

All the times I tried
Well I tried to be your perfect thing
Oh but it never came out right
And so I’m here remembering

Chorus

Sound of the Rain

I lay down and sleep won’t come
I stand still and still I run
I’m together, I’m undone

I am here and I am there
I am happy in despair
Yes I’m aware

I need the sound of the rain
Come down and wash it all away

I will give until I take
I am real until I’m fake
I am whole until I break

I am nothing that I seem
I want nothing that I need
I’m in-between

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I need the sound of the rain
Come down and wash it all away
I need the joy and the pain
Again and again, oh again and again

I am dirty, I am clean
I am strong and I am weak
I am bound and I am free
I believe what I don’t see
I am lovely, I am mean
I want war and I want peace
I am bitter, I am sweet

I lay down still sleep won’t come
I stand still and still I run
Yes I’m undone

Chorus 2x

Again and again…

Wrong

I thought I was through
Thought I cried enough over you
I thought I was good
I thought I knew all that I should

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But I was wrong
To think that you’d ever be gone
Oh I was wrong
To think that you’d ever be gone

I’m lost and not found
I thought that I’d won this round
But I took myself down
Now I’m just a face in the crowd

Chorus

What happened to yesterday?
What happened to the love we made
I don’t know what changed
Just time

Chorus 2x

Are You Happier Now?

You were my world and now it’s gone
Has another come and taken you on?
She’ll never hold you the way I do, the way I do
All six foot two of you, my love

All I want is to go back in time
Get in your head and you get in mine
Maybe then I wouldn’t be here

I dial your number just to hear your voice
You make everything more beautiful
I wanna tell you that I miss you
Wanna tell you that I love you
Wanna tell you that I’m sorry, that I’m sorry
That I’m sorry for it all
But I never make the call

All I want is for you to be happy
And if that means being without me
Then I guess I’ll have to go on

All I want is to know that you’re laughing
But if you find that time is just passing
Then I have just one question

Are you happier how?
Are you happier now?
Now that I’m gone…

Neverland

Beauty queens and magazines
I’m just thirteen and life ain’t what it seems
Yeah I know it’s bigger than me and you
But I can’t see through
There’s a place I love to go
It’s green and blue and it sparkles through and through
Yeah it’s all that I can do
To go to the place that I know
Where I will never grow old

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Take my hand, hey Peter Pan
We’re off to Never Neverland
I’ll begin to love again
If you’ll take me just the way that I am
Just the way that I am
Just the way that I am

All the time I’ve tasted life
Will I ever be a mother and a wife
Have a house with a fence that’s white
And oh do these dreams come true?
There’s a land of Tinkerbells and magic spells
And wishing wells and time will tell
But for now I bid farewell
And I go off with Peter Pan
I’m going just as fast as I can

Chorus

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Take my hand, hey Peter Pan
I’ll see you down in Neverland
I know I can love again
If you’ll take me just the way that I am
Just the way that I am
Just the way that I am
I’m running just as fast as I can
I’ll see you down in Neverland

Für Meine Liebe

There’s something about the way you look at me
My eyes are all you see
There’s something about the way you speak to me
That says I’m all you need

Chorus
Is this the way
Is this the way
Is this the way it’s supposed to be

There’s something about the way you lay me down
It’s gentle and it’s sweet
There’s something about the way you kiss me now
From my head down to my feet

Chorus

There’s something about the way you hold my hand
And you never let me go
There’s something about the way you understand
And the devil that you know

Chorus

Fever

I see the weakness in your knees
Feel the lust down in your jeans
A fever’s coming over me
Need someone to set me free
Need someone to set me free

I say exactly what I mean
But words are never what they seem
I’ll make you rock and then you’ll roll
Bring a little funk and soul
Said I’ll bring a little funk and soul

I’ll love you a little bit harder
I’ll make you beg for more
I’ll take you a little bit higher
Baby I love you, I want you, I need you
I gotta, gotta have it

If I haven’t made it clear
I’ll scream your name for all to hear
I’ll touch your skin and make you sweat
I’m one mistake you won’t regret
Honey if I haven’t made it clear
I’ll scream your name for all to hear
I’ll touch your skin and make you sweat
I’m one mistake you won’t regret
Said I am one mistake you won’t regret

Chorus
I’ll love you a little bit harder
I’ll make you beg for more
I’ll take you a little bit higher
Baby I love you, I want you, I need you
Love you, I want you, I need you
Said I gotta, gotta have it

I see the weakness in your knees
Feel the lust down in your jeans
A fever’s coming over me
Need someone to set me free
Need someone to set me free

Chorus